There are lots of ways to define "hook-up." Well, lots of nuances to the word anyway. I consider this a hook up because it was a last minute decision, I hadn't been talking to the guy for very long and I don't really have any intention of seeing him again. This is going to sound horrible, but I don't know how else to put it. He's not someone I really want to see in daylight. Bad teeth, weird hair, just not attractive to me.
He was, however, AMAZING at the oral! HOT DAMN!!! I lost count of how many times I came. And they were all really good, intense orgasms. OMG people...some of the best oral/best orgasms I've ever had!!
But then he couldn't get it up to fuck me. He totally psyched himself out so I barely even tried to get him hard. So much of the game is mental! The 2nd guy recently who could not finish the job. Why are they so nervous??? I will say that both were more like hook ups that I usually do. I like to talk to a guy a bit over at least a 24-48 hour period. But not longer, because usually, if you don't meet right away, you never will. And I'm not here to waste time. His or mine! I guess I come of ass intimidating? scary? unattractive?? I generally assume the problem is them though. A sexually forward woman...OH NO! Whatever will we do?
Ugh! It's annoying. But this is just a slump. Right? RIGHT? I sure hope so!! There aren't really any prospects for this weekend. Possibly Sunday, but I'm not getting my hopes up.
Somebody should comment. I'm writing this for you! Okay, I'm partially writing it for you. I'm also writing it for me. It's cathartic.
Peace out for now. lol
Friday, March 30, 2018
Monday, March 26, 2018
I might have lept before I looked!
I jumped into this whole blog thing without really figuring out what I wanted it to be. I'm still not sure. Do I want something more like a random blog where I write when I feel like it? Or do I want something a bit more structured or disciplined? I guess if it is about my sex life, that kind of dictates it.
So, I have no plans to ever reveal any real names. Most of the time I won't even refer to them by anything specific. If they get a nickname, that usually means I saw them at least twice. I just don't see the point in giving them names if they aren't sticking around. I've had guys message me after several months and I'm usually like "hey, sorry, I don't remember you." Sometimes I remember bits and pieces or they just look familiar, but sometimes I would think their lying except they clearly know me in the biblical sense. 👼😉 This happened just last night in fact!
Anyway, I've decided that guys all get a number. Is that heartless? It doesn't really have any reflection on them. It's just where they fall in line since me starting this blog. I will probably keep a running list somewhere. There's a part of me that would someday like to write a book. Possibly about his part of my life, possibly about other parts of my life. It's a pretty out there dream.
1. The 24 year old from last Saturday night who was extremely unsatisfying. Talked a big game and did not deliver. (p.s. he messaged me yesterday and said nerves got to him. I said he was welcome to try and persuade me to invite him over again (he was so cute!) but I haven't heard from him.) (side note: sometimes I wonder if my forwardness intimidates people.)
2. A guy who stood me up last Wednesday. He'd stood me up before, but I forgave him and then he fucking did it again! Shame on me though, right? I just try to believe the best in people. I do my best to be honest and choose my words carefully. I won't say "see you later" if I have no intention of seeing you again.
3. The guy who stood me up Sunday. We'd talked almost 3 months ago and I'd been really excited to meet him but he disappeared (it's fairly common). He claimed he was on tour. Anyway, we had plans to meet and we were chatting that day up until about 30 minutes before he was supposed to be here. Haven't heard from him since.
4. The random hookup from Tinder that came over around 10:30 last night. Ended up being excellent in some areas and remains a mystery in others. (this will be the topic of a post tomorrow hopefully, or the next day.
5. There is a potential 5 at this point. Stay tuned!
So, I have no plans to ever reveal any real names. Most of the time I won't even refer to them by anything specific. If they get a nickname, that usually means I saw them at least twice. I just don't see the point in giving them names if they aren't sticking around. I've had guys message me after several months and I'm usually like "hey, sorry, I don't remember you." Sometimes I remember bits and pieces or they just look familiar, but sometimes I would think their lying except they clearly know me in the biblical sense. 👼😉 This happened just last night in fact!
Anyway, I've decided that guys all get a number. Is that heartless? It doesn't really have any reflection on them. It's just where they fall in line since me starting this blog. I will probably keep a running list somewhere. There's a part of me that would someday like to write a book. Possibly about his part of my life, possibly about other parts of my life. It's a pretty out there dream.
1. The 24 year old from last Saturday night who was extremely unsatisfying. Talked a big game and did not deliver. (p.s. he messaged me yesterday and said nerves got to him. I said he was welcome to try and persuade me to invite him over again (he was so cute!) but I haven't heard from him.) (side note: sometimes I wonder if my forwardness intimidates people.)
2. A guy who stood me up last Wednesday. He'd stood me up before, but I forgave him and then he fucking did it again! Shame on me though, right? I just try to believe the best in people. I do my best to be honest and choose my words carefully. I won't say "see you later" if I have no intention of seeing you again.
3. The guy who stood me up Sunday. We'd talked almost 3 months ago and I'd been really excited to meet him but he disappeared (it's fairly common). He claimed he was on tour. Anyway, we had plans to meet and we were chatting that day up until about 30 minutes before he was supposed to be here. Haven't heard from him since.
4. The random hookup from Tinder that came over around 10:30 last night. Ended up being excellent in some areas and remains a mystery in others. (this will be the topic of a post tomorrow hopefully, or the next day.
5. There is a potential 5 at this point. Stay tuned!
Friday, March 23, 2018
Now what?
So Craigslist personals were shut down yesterday. This seriously changes things. It means I need to find new ways to meet guys. I'm sure some new thing will fill that market in a few months, at least I hope so!
More than one person said they thought of me when they saw an article about it. That cracked me up!
I'm still processing.
Thursday, March 22, 2018
Not everything is a competition!
I'm in a bit of a a slump. The last guy didn't show up. The guy before that couldn't get it up and didn't bother trying to get me off. The last guy also said he was "going to make up for the last guy." Tonight I'm talking to a new guy and he's being all cocky like guys are. Then he says "I'll make up for the last guy." Ugh! Don't worry about some shmuck whose name I'll have forgotten by next week! Just do your best. There's something to be said for effort.
I'd write more, but I'm so tired. It's be a couple long weeks.
Wednesday, March 21, 2018
Titles
I could NOT think if what to call my blog, so I asked a new friend. I just added the last word, slut. Because there's nothing wrong with being one!
Some other of her awesome suggestions we're:
Casual Encounters
You know you wish you could
Who's at the door?
It was a tough choice.
New posts will either be feast or famine. I'm chatty tonight and bursting with ideas!
Dammit!
I thought of a MUCH better first post title! I have a tendency to jump into things when I'm excited!
And so it begins...
Because really, I've been kicking around this idea for a while now. And now I've sent the link to multiple people so, yeah, it's real. I'm literally excited (wink, wink) right now! Kinda makes up for being stood up. Well, eases the pain a bit anyway.
Another post idea, my inspiration, Karley Sciortino. You should really check out her show, Slutever, on Viceland. I'm also enjoying her book by the same name, as well.
Popping my blog's cherry!
I was stood up tonight. Not the first time and certainly not the last. I'm actually quite surprised. I've been chatting with this guy for a few months, which is a long time for me. Our schedules just never really matched up. We were supposed to get together about a week ago and he no-showed then because somebody, his mom I think, got in an accident. Yeah, yeah, I know he could have been lying, but I try not to think that way. Sometimes life really does get in the way. Of course, now that it's happened AGAIN, I wonder...
But his last message to me was 30 minutes before he was supposed to be here. He's not the first to say they are on their way and then I never hear from them again. I always wonder why they take it that far before backing out. Or maybe they never intended to meet.
There are so many more posts I could write right now, but I'll just leave you with this little morsel. I don't want you to tire of me! ;)
Future posts to include;
an explanation/definition of the lifestyle I'm leading
frequently asked questions about my lifestyle
my tips for craigslist
Feel free to ask me questions. My life is an open book for most people. I don't mind sharing. I think I have an interesting view on the world.
But his last message to me was 30 minutes before he was supposed to be here. He's not the first to say they are on their way and then I never hear from them again. I always wonder why they take it that far before backing out. Or maybe they never intended to meet.
There are so many more posts I could write right now, but I'll just leave you with this little morsel. I don't want you to tire of me! ;)
Future posts to include;
an explanation/definition of the lifestyle I'm leading
frequently asked questions about my lifestyle
my tips for craigslist
Feel free to ask me questions. My life is an open book for most people. I don't mind sharing. I think I have an interesting view on the world.
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